at the end of the day

I made it. woke up at 10.00a not feeling like facing the days uncertainties, made coffee took Rudy for a walk came home and called my son L he was 29 years old today I just missed him his mum told me that he and his girlfriend had gone out to a concert."How are you" she asked" not that good" I replied "" I can hear that" she said" feel like talking ?" so I started telling her about my financial mud bath and my dreams and aspirations and my regrets and resolutions, oh by the way L,s mum lives in London and we have been separated for 25 years. A visitor showed up at L's house my good friend Ren, long time since we were together we talked about life style, my change of direction in my life his achievement of purchasing 2 houses and life for us in general it was good to speak to both of these people from my past they have known me for many years .Ren was inspired by my new way of being and I felt recharged when he asked me" what do you have there" I descibed my cars, house and job situation I felt grateful again so after our conversation was over I went about my day. first I took care of the truck loan interest payment that bought me 30 more days, then I took out another loan for $450 to pay rent and arranged with a very nice lady from a collection agency who I have become very fond of, she was the first negotiation that I arranged for repayment of my credit cards and because she was so understanding about my situation I gained the courage to negotiate with all the other collection agency reps, thank you Mona R for being human about your job. The rent payed, the car still mine, and some money left to get to next pay day, mission accomplished. I will now return to posting my up till this point entries so please continue to read on. what a difference a day makes and how different I feel at the end of the day.