2008 out with old

Its almost 2009 and I am writing the last blog of 2008 .What a year it has been, and as I enter these words I am prepared for an even greater one to come I feel centered and focused , grateful and excited I will continue to learn more about myself and what I am capable of achieving. Thanks to all my family and friends you are truly appreciated, each one of you has made a great contribution to my life. God bless you and may all your dreams come true in 2009.

A xmas message from Mdollar

Happy holidays to one and all. I hope that you have been enjoying my friend Y's posts in this blog it has been definately interesting for myself to observe the progress made in the life of my friend Y. I have been able to study his progress and to monitor his growth spiritually and financialy I am very proud of him for being able to still stay commited to his long term goal of becoming a Millionaire while still not seeming in the present to be making any head way. He has worked hard on the first stage of his plan which was to stabilise his bills and create an oganized system for monitoring payments and repayments, if not for this he surely would not have been able to still keep his commitments to his rent and other basic living needs. It is apparent to me that his original idea of having a Million dollars will fall into its own natural place and in the time that he has stated because it has never left his focus. As he asks more and reads more about becoming a Millionaire more answers and information becomes available to him. The law of attraction states that what you focus on you will attract. In time my identity will be revealed, for now I can tell you this I am wealthy beyond beleif, I have acheived the supreme level of contentment In my life, I am One and also many, I speak with and listern to my creator I am constantly understanding more of this world as we know it and always want to understand more, at any given time I am aware that some one is not doing as well as I am, and I know that I can only keep what I have by giving it away, I have no control of any one or any thing, the only thing I can control is myself and my way of thinking, I am part of the whole universe and every living thing on this planet Earth. At this xmas time I wish all people happy holidays and look forward to seeing others prosper and reach their goals in 2009. I will be closely watching my friend Y to see his progress next year. keep going my friend you are on the 5th mile of twenty six just warming up, 21 miles to go. keep focused on the finish line you will be there soon and when you receive your medal your real journey will have just started good luck and God speed > Mdollar

the greatest gift of all

Its Christmas eve and I have just finished putting up our Xmas tree. As I wrapped the coloured lights and silver tinsel around the tree I started crying, my emotions in a turmoil I went into the garage and looked at the desk sized planner I use for organizing my bills .The power bill is due $82.00 a pre arranged amount I had calculated to pay with my bank account but unfortunately there is no more money available . I took the last money I had in the house and payed the bill came home and looked at my symbol of Christmas, the tree with its bright lights and glitter my tearful eyes sore my spirit in disarray it was time to post this message. Christmas almost didn't come for me this year. neither myself or Lisa could bring ourselves to even put up decorations or the tree .Yesterday morning I woke early and went once again to a Loan company and as the day went on and the money got spent I became frustrated once again my frustration turned to anger and I became aware that I was once again being and acting Ungrateful. At midnight I went to a meeting at the fellowship where I explained my day and my behaviour returning home peaceful until this morning when I put up our tree .I have no money after paying $165.00 for my car insurance this morning and taking care of the power bill. Putting up our Christmas tree took me back to my childhood I remember getting so excited about Christmas and Santa clause coming to give me presents it was almost unbearable .I would stay awake all night until eventually I had to sleep but I would wake very quickly and check to see If Santa had left me anything, my mother ( Santa ) would put my toys In a big pillow and leave it at the bottom of my bed. How wonderful is the memory, I wish to this day that Santa Clause really existed, but alas we must grow and realise the truth that Christmas is a time of spending, gifting and being generous in the name of Jesus Christ being born.I was raised in the christian religion and for Christians the 25th of December is the most blessed day.This Christmas I have been given the greatest gift of all , the ability to feel my emotions the chance of a new day the focus of a clean and clear mind the joy of others and their blessings and the understanding that to remain grateful is the biggest and most wonderful thing that we as humans can do to connect ourselves to our higher power the creator of the universe .

lake serenity

I just arrived home with Rudy after our favorite Sunday morning walk around the lake properties in west Las Vegas it is a crisp clear and sunny day. This time last week I was still running in the Marathon I have not run since ,my left foot has some pain almost like a sprain I felt this for a while but continued to train so I have been resting it a little , thank you body for continuing to carry my mind into another week. The leaves have fallen around the trees at the Lake and as Rudy pulled sniffed and pee'd his way around our walk I thought about the coming weeks ahead. The holidays are here we will put our xmas tree up soon I will have to work on xmas day and possibly new years. So far this week I have to the most part been able to keep the fear of not making my bills at bay, all of them have been arranged for later payment including the rent that has been extended to later than any date since I have been renting in 5 years of living in Las vegas .The only thing I can do is to make sure that in each day I keep fear , complaining , and negative thoughts of not making my goal of Millionaire out of my mind.This excercise is of the most highest importance for me to be able to succeed in my quest. I will concentrate even more now on what I will be driving, where I will be living, what business I will be doing at the end of the year deadline that I have Set for myself , this week I presented my sales analysis report to store area manager he told me that he he was on board and that I had his ear but I still cannot get him to understand implementing my system for generating more sales must happen immediately or I will have to leave it for that company while I work somewhere else. I will try very hard to appreciate my gift of a new day and the coming of a new challenging week and being able to be closer to my higher power as I walk with my dog Rudy around Lake serenity.

in the moment

Today is here and I'm one day closer to my new challenge paying my rent and the loan for my truck title, no wage until 4 days past eviction deadline and the check I gave to the I R S is not going to be cleared. Wednesday is the Nevada power bill. How will I sought out this new dilemma?. Well first of all its not new, I've been through this before and at this time everyone that I talk to has some money worries or problems. Maybe that's the point I don't have any wealthy people around me. I have the books and teachings of many Millionaires and my own mind. In this coming week I will not allow my mind to create fear in my body so that I become frozen. This week I must take action to the next level of thinking .I will continue in each day to speak positively to other people I will continue to write a sales analysis of T B plc to present to my managers ,I will continue to set up my astore connected with mdollar blog and I will continue my business plan for the tanning salon. I will appreciate my life and my material things by cleaning and organizing and I will give thanks to my higher power for allowing me another day on this Earth .I will not allow my Friday deadline to steal today away from me by fearing the outcome of this week the only thing I can control is me and my thinking so I will think with energy and positive action by living in the moment.

new week, new thinking

Its Monday morning about 8.00a. As I awoke I felt the muscles in my legs, there is still some pain, yesterday I ran the Las Vegas Marathon. It was my slowest and most painful Marathon yet. This will make my fourth attempt at this event the last three where in Los Angeles and they were much more comfortable for me. My lack of preparation for this run became apparent at about mile 19, up till then I was feeling great and even had a 3.30 hour pace but alas my mood and hopes of finishing so well were dashed by cramping of my calf's, quads and hamstrings. I had to stop running and walk. with the distance 2/3rds complete the remaining miles were slow and painful, I kept wanting to see the finish line but could not see it till the very last moment, as I rounded the bend at Mandalay Hotel I saw it ,there It was the finish line I ran the last 400 metres In and was handed my medal. Exhausted and in pain I walked to my car disheartened and very humble . On arriving home I greeted Rudy and hugged Lisa took a hot shower and went to bed. After a few hours sleep it was time to make two loan payments. so after the first challenge of the day came the next, finding money when there is none. My thanks to all the participants of this Marathon for running with and talking to me, we all set a goal committed to and accomplished something amazing completing a 26.2 mile distance in our own time. I dedicate my Run to my two astral friends Rob P and Dave N as I ran and walked I thought of you both, I did not break the cycle Rob thank you for giving me the gift of running and Dave it has been just 2 years since you took your life and now you feel no pain, there is now a new week and new thinking.

world aids day

Today is world aids day and as a new week and month starts I think about all the men women and children sick and dying of aids world wide. A special shout out to Bono lead singer of u2 and Bobby Shriver for their efforts to put together aid for those dying in Africa, approximately 3,500 every day this is a world wide problem and we all probably know or have heard of someone close who has been infected, my prays go out to all .

one hundred miles and a marathon

Monday 2.40am the start of a new week I have had an interesting last three days on arriving back to work I had a brief encounter with a rather young African American man who asked the price of a ladies bag he said it was a gift for an aunt I told him the price of the piece and my company area manager being the retail trader that he is asked him if he wanted to buy it and he said he did not know, as the gentleman walked to another area in the store my manager said "That means he can't afford it " long story short the man purchased another bag and left, but not before leaving a flyer about himself and his amazing achievements in the world of finance. He is an author of three best selling books and was a millionaire at the age of 14 his name is Dr.f G. As I staired at the flyer which explained all that he had done and achieved by the ripe old age of 24 I began to realize that the desire to succeed is the most important of all. It dose'nt matter which age you are what your background or race is or even your circumstances if the desire is strong enough you will succeed. My power is still on, I did an automatic bill payment arrangement .took about 4 minuets on Saturday morning to take away my fear of that bill payment and I can pay on Friday the 5th for my marathon registration so my dream of running it on Sunday shall come to pass. My goal this week is to complete one hundred miles before the marathon on Sunday I have logged up about 87 miles since my first five mile run 3 months ago so this weekI will do a couple of runs at red rock and rest up for the big one. Oh and by the way I have decided not to beat myself up about not being exactly where I desire to be right now I have been pushing myself to focus but not allowing myself to feel grateful about my life as it is at this very moment this has been causing me to get stressed . After seeing the news reports of the Mumbai tragedy I realised that life is to short to be mad at my self I have stopped complaining and just accept my present situation, in this way I can be proactive rather than reactive I become a Victor and not a victim. As a new week starts I have a new business focus I have started researching and working on the business plan for a tanning salon, each day of the last three I have made one step to bringing this new idea to fruition.