New Month Intesified Goals

11.00pm Sunday,Last day of the month cant believe we are almost into March .With this new month approaching I have decided to Intensify my goals, last month was not a financially fruitful period, lots of setting up and reviewing, a busy time creating the structure of TCG but as the last week came around two meetings that we really needed to come through fell apart before my very eyes,as each one turned into the obvious no go situation the only way to salvage them was to analyze what went wrong and regroup. I need a supreme energy now and I will prey for Guidance and blessings for all my endeavors this new Month. The band that I am managing will perform for the first time this year and I will have to make sure that I can capitalize on this opportunity to invite all people and contacts to this show I am enjoying passing on my vast knowledge of the music business and its ups and downs. Good luck AN with your talent and my brains and experience there is a very good chance of being signed to a Major Label before the end of year.After discovering that I have a high blood pressure I changed my diet leaving out caffeine ,sugar ,and eating 70% macrobiotic food I have lowered on the last reading to 111 over 66 a very good number I was at 146 over 98 I hope that this will be a continued stability I must admit It did disturb my flow quite a bit, but after my first entry to this blog about my affliction I have had a turn for the better.After my bands show on Thursday I must leave immediately for San Diego for a software seminar so that I can learn how to really use the tool that TCG purchased after our last deal ,my business partner is also going to be there and it will give us some good focused and concentrated work bonding I am looking forward to this weekend but because of last Months financial non performance it will be a shoe string trip,However this does not phase me I have been down to the wire so many times as you know ,I feel almost comfortable trying to figure out the next day turning disaster into victory is what I do. This Month is also significant because it is an anniversary, 2 years ago I changed my entire life from blurred and crazy ,drunk and hazy into clear and focused clarity I discovered my true self and the cause of all my complaints about where my life was then I changed and so did everything around me Now I control manage myself properly I will make this month my most goal intensified this year I will be strict on my diet, my exercise my business planning and my organizing of my days tomorrow I will rise early and run before planning my bills and then will start to create the best financial results so far this year.

On Level Ground

3.20am Monday.New week approaching had a great weekend feeling relaxed and going to bed after this entry.I am now on level ground looking at the mountain top ,at the top of this mountain is One Million Dollars.the first stage of my Journey has been accomplished.Buried in debt is a very suffocating place the more you dig the more the debris falls into your face leaving you breathless and speechless the strength to carry on is drained every time you receive your money and have to give all of it away and then still owe ,If you have followed this blog there has been real time evidence of my struggle to clear my situation and find my way to financial freedom as this week starts I will be focused on closing another deal this time an investor package set up and presented last week .I am anxious and excited about the possible outcome of this new opportunity .The Investor is not convinced totally about the terms and I will have to rely on my skills as a salesman and my ability to identify the Investors personal trigger points ,it is a physiological game negotiated with confidence and trepidation where my urgency cannot be made apparent to the Investor every thing I have learned in the 5 years previous ,comes down to this negotiation,I will start of the week with a medium distance run followed by some study on sight reading for bass I have a lesson tomorrow and want to be as productive as possible in being able to move forward with the teacher after this study I will put on my business cap and start making the calls .Everything I dream about and wish for is just a phone call away .imagine that, an email or a phone call can change the entire course of ones life these precious moments of triumph can create the future one desires .Communication and the complex and infinite results from these verbal and written encounters must be studied and revised until there is no fear left in the actual act of asking for and securing the outcome necessary for a desired result. with my head above ground and gazing upward I am alive and ready for this new week It taken over one year to be on level ground

Anatomy of a deal

4.00am Monday.Heading into the second week of Feb momentom building for TCG and my new business affiliate H Leather gaining ground. My financial future is looking bright, I am now nursing a bruised finger due to a misplacment of my hand on a weapon while attending an Aikido seminar earlier today.Just had a long hot bath reveiwing the techniques learned at the seminar.My doctor told me that I had high blood pressure last week and I thought about the action I must and would take .After studing Macrobiotic diet and being Macrobitic for 6 years when I lived in Los Angeles I have dicided to approach High blood pressure in a holistic and not western Medine method. Today I went to look for books about the subject and have already started to injest herbs and food that help with regulating this condition .What good is all the money in the world if you are in danger of leaving the earth through an over stressed heart .Which leads me to the whole point of this blog I am sure that my last two and a half years of wonderful retail bliss contributed to the condition along with consuming massive amounts of strong coffee which by the way I have now resolved to only drinking occasionly in the decafeinated form. I must admit I was very concerned when my doctor advised me about my peril if this situation went unchecked. Being proactive about my condition has empowered me once again and propelled me to the positive I can do something about this subject I can do anything that I set my mind to do.When I started this blog I wanted all people reading to experience my entire process good and bad, what would my first deal be like ? was a question I asked in the very beginning of this blog .My first deal was truly exhilarating ,after some delays and many texts and closing calls to the client I finally met my business partner in a parking lot ,
as I jumped into his car it felt some what similar to my Rock N roll lifestyle days picking up an evenings social party favours and as we went through our calculations for reinvesting into our business and all expenses that needed to be covered I experienced a high very similar to what an addict might feel just before a fix the feeling was so powerful I had to tell my Partner "I feel high right now" He told me that this sense of excitement and anticipation was very similar to the high received in anticipation of any addictive substances.Very strange. But after we had exchanged our thanks and congratulations and hugged and told each other how much we appreciated each other and shook hands I drove home. I had $5000 in cash sitting on my lap feeling grateful purposeful and relieved .I had received the result of the seeds planted in my own business since the beginning of it Creation and It felt like I had $100,000 on my lap.
As we continue into this month I remain Blessed and grateful for this wonderful realization of my dreams the best part of all of this was showering all the money down on Lisa's head you should have seen the look of suprise on her face and then the feeling of hope and belief in me. I gave her $500 to spend as she pleases it has been an amazing week I have paid back some people taken care of some pay day loans and now have just a little cushion, my Rent was payed on the 1st and my manager congratulated me on my deal she has been very tolerant of my late rent paying and has spoken up for me when the property owners have asked about my tardiness , thank you Suzy for being supportive and understanding ,I could not have kept my apartment with out your help. Oh and I have next months rent put aside, what a relief ,so you see all things resolve when attention is payed to all things the hard part is being honest, humble, patient and forward thinking in the positive .I put together a food package for the local church were I pray and meditate when I first became unemployed they gave me a food package and I only used one of the three opportunities to get food from the food bank but I thought then, when I see better financial times I would donate to this wonderful and life saving concept .Tomorrow I will take the food to the Church the food goes to feed families less fortunate than ourselves, my faith in human compassion has been replenished by the very nature of my own misfortune, out of every situation comes a positive if received in that way .Lets see what this week brings If I get another day I will fill it with more lessons learning how to become a Millionaire ,one day at a time