giving thanks

Today is thanksgiving, an American holiday where people get together with their families and friends cook turkey and enjoy being together, it feels to me because I am from England almost like Xmas day with out the Xmas tree. What can I be thankful for today? well I woke up today that's a good start even though I still have a severe headache that has been with me since yesterday morning this will be my third day off work yesterday I had some work done on my foot due to my running a corn had formed under my foot it felt like walking on a pebble very painful its amazing how a tiny area of hard skin can translate to such a painful experience. What else can I be thankful for? my dog Rudy who is licking my elbow as I type this journal the cool rainy day outside, my girlfriend Lisa still sleeping and all my family and friends .I thank god that I am not in Mumbai under seige from militants who are holding hostage and killing who ever they wish to.There are many families that are so worried and in fear of their loved ones being hurt or killed it makes my fear of getting my power shut off this weekend almost ridiculous. I pray for an end to this latest conflict and hope that it can be resolved quickly. As I look at my quest and read through the entry's a clear pattern is emerging. every three weeks or so I fall into a crippling and listless depression I am able to face my days with great vigour and resolve appreciating everything that I have and believing in my future wealth and then suddenly I am stopped in mid stride I become negative and cynical I look at my past with regret and hopelessness every successful person that I see or read about seems as if they have what it takes and that I don't ,the more I hear what to do from these great teachers the more I don't believe that I can do it I have not sorted my bills as I said in the last entry and I now face this new bill that is past due termination of this service will be devastating and so I must and will find a way I will probably have to pawn my guitar again and hope that I can cover the cost of having my power on ,my dream of running the marathon next week Sunday seems in serious jeopardy the registration needs to be in by Dec 2nd and I don't get my next check till Dec 5th. If you have been reading or following this blog you must now surely see why I need to achieve my Million dollar goal.Life will always present its self with financial challenges and also challenges that are nothing to do with money but having financial independence will allow me to find Peace in this area of our modern life. It will allow me to wake up not feeling that I have let down a friend who went above and beyond to help me pay my rent last month It will allow me not to go toThanks giving dinner empty handed. It will allow me to send my son something for his birthday next year
It will allow me the great pleasure of running the marathon next week, it will take allow me to take this weight of debt from my shoulders, the list goes on and on. Today I will give thanks for my day off from work and my friend and artist Bryan C for welcoming us to his house for Thanks giving I will enjoy today by being thankful and living this day like it is my last with gratitude and understanding .God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference.

hello readers

Its Tuesday morning my day off ,today I will sort out my bills make a new monthly plan for Decembers bills . Its nice to be able to have a system in place so I can feel somewhat in control of my money. Thanks to English Steve for looking at my blog and letting me know that only registered users with a pass word could leave a comment I changed the settings last night and this morning I found two comments, they are anonymous but served as a great reminder. I have one great asset Lisa , and to find one great idea and not focus on so many. The first comment hit the nail on the head I am very lucky to have so a great friend in Lisa, times are tough and all our dreams and aspirations are sometimes so overwhelming that we get very frustrated and take it out on each other. I must always try to remember not to neglect or push away such a valuable asset to me. The other comment about finding one great idea is also very valid, I am spread very thin at this moment because I really don't know what that great idea is, it is true that when I focused on becoming a musician I attained a great amount of success it was the only thing I focused on sometimes to the detriment of my friends and family but I was successful ,I think at this moment my skills are developed in so many more areas that there is not just one aspect of me I have a right brain creative and a left brain organizational head on my shoulders now I am more balanced in thinking or more rounded. I like to take a meeting and negotiate terms in a suit and I also like creating music and Art, so I will continue to be YNL Enterprises until I can determine which aspect of me will emerge I believe the moment will come when I will know definitely in which manner I will become a millionaire.

present day ( back to the future )

I have finally imputed all my previous writings into this blog and I am now recording in real time , and so now that I have caught up the reality of my goal to become a Millionaire in just one year is quite daunting . Having to go back over my past entries to bring the blog up to date gave Me a chance to see a how I was feeling when I wrote them. Its been 3 months since I had my epiphany 9 months are left to achieve my goal. Its 11.45p Sunday evening Lisa and I have just finished watching the A M A's and after opening shift at work today it was nice to sit and watch an award show relating to the business I love, music. The group that I played bass for received 3 A M A's and a Grammy 17 years ago I miss that world Its even been painful to see such shows for me , for years Rob P and I would try to watch them after our fall from grace but It would just frustrate us too much. Poor Rob never really recovered from this misfortune F M the other member surviving member of the duo is still pursuing music , but it has been a long and arduous road for him and he still has not been able to make a comeback.
As this new week approaches I am once again bogged down in money shifting , paying back loans and trying to keep up with the bills . I am not feeling good about my new association with TB plc the non commission environment and no real collective focus from the company in general to be creative and aware of sales projection and client sales management has meant no added bonus hours to my paychecks I have now the very difficult job of paying all my normal commitments for living such as rent ,.utilities Insurance etc on nearly half of what I used to take home before I went to BNY , plus the general trepidation in spending from the clients has prompted all retailers to break sale early. For me sale means that I am working twice as hard for half the amount. The last straw is finding out that I will work on Xmas day I love this day off more than any other and would gladly swap another day for my most favorite day, however this is not possible. Why am I making such bad job moves? I am continuing to plummet deeper into debt every day.Tomorrow I will start the week of with an Aikido class the one thing I am feelin focused and reconnected with, I wish that I could just practice this art all day long and not have to keep worrying about these bills and how I will make good to all of my Financial commitments
I must keep in Faith therefore not being in fear, I must believe in my Million Dollar goal and stay focused on this goal there for I will attract it into my life and I still must remain grateful and patient I am feeling tired now so I will rest when I become too tired I start to not believe I become doubtful as to my capabilities , this coming week will be challenging I will keep posting to let you know my progress.

2 days later

Its 2 days later and by virtue of the fact that I am making an entry in this computer I was able to make my 48 hour deadline in fact I made the deadline in 24 hours.The next day I got up went out and took care of business still have my place but a loan company has the title of Rocky I have A thirty day reprieve until the next rent is due I have two more weeks before being paid again and very little money until then probably about $40 .Today is my dog Rudy's 2 year birthday and I'm glad he still has a home, I'm not feeling in such great health my throat is sore and I don't have such great energy I am drained. Because it is my day off I rested today woke up at 9.00a late for me and went for coffee with D Astone who stayed at my house last night after his exploratory op .I intended to go on my long run at Red rock canyon but I did'nt want to miss D before he left for California to seek out his dream of being in movies . At coffee we talked about what he wanted and I explained to him how Hollywood is and how it works and as we sat I felt almost jealous of him.I told him how lucky he was to be able to leave one situation and arrive fully ready for His new life and opportunity. Not many people have the chance to do such a thing .I remembered my first real life changing adventure I landed in New York with 2 bags , A bass guitar and $300 I was able to find my destiny at least for a number of years I felt exhilarated and alive and ready to take on anything.As he left my house in his corvette fully loaded with all his things that he could fit in it and a mind full of dreams he brought back to me the feelings of adventure that I had when I left London for New York almost twenty years ago. He just called me, its now 10pm he arrived safely to Manhattan beach California and was excited, good luck my friend I hope you find your destiny .

48 hours

I remember watching the movie 48 hours with Nick N and Eddie M, it was years ago ,my son was so young he is now 29 yrs old . Eddies character had 48hrs to complete his mission or go back to jail and Nick had to make sure it was done .Today I feel like the Eddie character, in 48 hrs if I don't come up with my rent I will be at the start of an eviction .Its Monday night 10.40pm today has not been the easiest the seriousness of my deadline is hanging over my head like a guillotine Lisa is in a complete state of depression and I am at my wits end.So this is what this journal is all about how can I save this situation from happening I'm on a train thats out of control and about to crash through the end of the station .This day has arrived and I have no real options available to me I cannot ask my friends to lend me the money I took my car title to a loan company the girl said that I would only qualify for $400 she seemed as shocked as I was, I had imagined $2000 would be what I could get with that amount I could pay the rent and have some money set aside for the repayment until my wage could catch up . Because of the timing of changing to the new job I only received One weeks wage I am at least $600 short for the rent and I need to eat and have gas money until next Friday.
I am remarkably calm and collected now but I feel lost I know that tomorrow I will have to rise early ,I have to find this money somehow.I'm thinking 2 loans one at money t and the other a title loan.The problem is I have not held my bank account with a good amount of cash in it for any real amount of time one of the requirements for securing a loan I hope this will workout for me .My faith and spirit are really being tested ,this is not going to be easy if I don't get these loans I'm in deep s...t .I know that getting anxious is not going to help but all this pressure is exhausting me , it's almost to much to deal with.What ever doesn't kill me only makes me stronger .All of my entrepreneurial projects are still there in various stages of progress but this deadline is the only thing I can think of tonight .I will pray for guidance and try to rest so that I can get ahead start on the day .Oh and by the way I have to take D Astone to to the hospital for a stomach operation and let him stay at my house after so that he can recuperate he is supposed to go to California to pursue his dream of acting on Wednesday 48hrs from now.

not just about the money

Well its been about a week since my last entry,this week has been exhausting, exhilarating,stimulating and extremely interesting.After my drive to Red rock canyon I returned to las vegas and my house feeling different. I had seen a side of Las Vegas that I had not experienced before. I was humbled by the magnificence of the huge hills and valleys and the surroundings of the canyon.I want to run the 15 mile loop, it will be excellent for me as it has so much elevation .
A perfect pre marathon run. Sometime this month I will do the run.My pursuit of the million dollars has continued but as I gain more opportunities for achieving this goal my emphasis has and focus has changed or rather it has evolved into a different thinking.My spiritual and physical growth has become more and more important to me.I have started to learn again .I realized in the past two weeks that I have not learned anything new for the past few years. I have had a successful career in music I have achieved some great recognition as a bass player but in the past few years I have been in a plateau of living in the past. My past achievements were fueling my present and in living with my past successes I had stayed stagnant and had not stretched my mind by learning new things. For instance ,I have been playing bass for over 30 years and still do not sight read , I have practiced Aikido for over 10 years and still have not tested for my black belt ,I have lived with Lisa for 8 years and do not speak even basic Italian. My focus or rather non focus has been going out and being social ,being a legendary figure of the past A knight of the round table of the poor and infamous , other people have kept alive this surreal me who lives on past deeds and success's .Feeding my ego and enabling me to be a legend in my own mind.Of course drinking and using drugs did not help me to clearly see myself and my life in the present there was not enough clarity for me to gain a full focus for my future. I addressed my drug and alcohol using and cut that behaviour out of my life with the help of the NA fellowship . Because of the intense and revealing self realizations of the program ironically my mind opened up to reading and learning , my desire to succeed has increased and I believe in my abilities again .It is apparent to me that all aspects of self can be looked at and changed. my quest to take financial control of my life and be independently wealthy must combine all parts of self. The mental , physical , and spiritual foundation that will allow the focus ,discipline and serenity for when I receive the Million Dollars. This will be key to me feeling good and staying balanced within that situation .So now I know that being wealthy is about my state of being and not just about the money.

board meeting

Well its Sunday morning and a new week starts tomorrow.Monday to Friday is what I'm used to thinking , however because I work in retail Saturday is part of the week and because I work in retail in Las Vegas Sunday is also part of the work week. But I am going to use the stock market as the week start and finish.The stock market last week has been sent reeling because of all the collapses in the banking and finance industry. L bros and Fannie and Freddie and all the major money players are upside down .The US government has bailed out some , others have taken a blow. I will watch the market the situation seems really bad, I pray that the people and there families of this workers and owners do not become too distraught and take drastic action such as when the stock market collapsed in 1907 .YnL Enterprises is still afloat there has been an upswing in the job market, the connection with T B plc has been signed and sealed ,a new prospecting venture is under way in the real estate foreclosure market Pilot Productions artist Bryan C has been given advice about possibilities for career future. Also music study has now been set up ,another source of income for YnL Enterprises.Pilot Productions received a large screen computer monitor and now needs a tower so new music studio can be built . Bills have been nicely organized with a colour coded system on a large desk top month at a glance calender ,this method of tracking is working.More miles have been added to Nplus site, Aikido practice is not as regular as hoped but still is absorbed in home meditation on techniques.I have started Italian lessons and continue to learn from great cd books daily . there is so much more to do must soldier on into the coming week always trying my best to remain grateful, calm and serene.

power lunch

10.00a Thursday, Its almost been one week since my last entry time flies . Today I am going to see the owner of the T B cafe a delightful little local cafe with a drive through all in a stand alone building . Its decor is classic, and there is a couch , some tables a coffee bar and outside seating area. It has an extensive menu from regular coffee to mixed ice blended drinks ,Gelatto , panini,and muffins .T B cafe is up for sale and I'm interested to know how much for.It has been a dream of mine and Lisa to own a little coffee shop .I have made an attempt to make that wish come true . I started the business plan , found a great location and involved my friend and former client N S .He is a tall Korean man who has given me a lot of his time, he is partners in a very large investment firm that acquires business's and then turns them over for huge profits . N S has been somewhat of a financial advisor to me , guiding , explaining about investments the stock market and company cash flow.I feel extremely fortunate to have him in my life .i told him about the cafe' and he told me what to ask to see regarding the business financials and how to set the deal. I just got off the phone with Major F we talked about my meeting ,body building,Las Vegas and his new job quest Major F has a very calm analytical way of way of seeing life hew has always taken interest in my business ideas and knows alot about stock investing. After my meeting I will do some real estate study, check out how to find the details on property history so that I can determine which property is in foreclosure .At 5.00p I will sign paperwork for TB plc and at 6.30p I will meet Bryan C to discuss and plan the next stages of his career ,after being eliminated from AGT he has lost his momentum .I will have to come up with a definite Idea for him in order to bring back his confidenceI will write it all down as ai sit at D astone pool after my power lunch. Now I must go downstairs into my gym for a chest workout , iron a crisp white shirt while listening to Anthony R cd i will take his incredible energy with me to my meeting.

knowledge is power

1.45a Friday, I spent the vast majority of the day in home school . After going to the library to take out some books, I got, Rich dad Poor dad , How to get rich, and The edge, also a basic Italian course.after downloading them to my computer I listened tom the foreclosure cd, Gems in the neighbourhood. I talked to stevo earlier on today and he is just as enthusiastic as I am about our new fountain of untapped wealth, oh and by the way to start the day today I chalked up another 3.5 miles to add to this weeks tally.The rest of the month will be an intense study period . Tomorrow is an exercise in humility , the rent is due and because of bad sales week I must once again ask someone to bail me out .I am calm at this moment choosing not to panic because that state of mind will not allow me to act with responsive decision ,with all these great teachers to listen to I can feel confident that this dilemma will pass also I will take A Robbin's advice and control my emotions , Knowledge is power.

guess who's back

Thursday 2.31 am I'm feeling great , just sorted through the black box under my production office desk a much needed project.Everything in the large storage box has been sifted through and filed .It feels good, I have already typed my resignation letter and have been looking on the web for homes in London and some surrounding areas .I can smell the flowers and hear the birds as I watch the virtual tour images of some of these magnificent properties .2.5 million pounds and up. Soon I will be able to add one of these homes to my shopping cart. This morning started early with Aikido class , a beginning student will be testing for his 5th kyu rank soon and we practiced bokken and jo techniques these are the two weapons mostly used in our practice .I will test for my shodan black belt test next march and soon will have to make class more regularly.The major reason for me feeling good at this time is my new hope that I will achieve my goal of making a million dollars in one year . Yesterday I attended a seminar on home foreclosures it was free my friend Stevo also joined me . I learned so much about the subject in the 1 1/2 hour session that I became instantly happy ,this is the fastest way that I can acquire the amount of cash that I need for my goal . We received a 2 cd gift set that has information crammed on them , I will now study everyday the principles of in these cd's until the end of September and in October I will purchase a foreclosure property to practice and learn. I have nothing to lose and much to gain from this as I open up myself more and more to receive the blessings of life and knowledge I am starting to realize that if I just make a step toward a door with conviction other doors open for me ,what a wonderful adventure to embark upon.

another manic monday

How terrible is depresion.The latter half of last week lost to no energy , but that is now history.Saturday started out well with a 5.8mile run and a decent sales day associated with BNY but alas it is too litle too late . I have decided to move my business elsewhere . I will give my final yes to TB PLc located at CP hotel . Higher hourly rate plus more traffic seems like a better deal I have learned much at the P location I will take that experience with me to TB plc, its an English company quite affordable but also edgy.I cannot wait to see what I can do in this new environment .Aah, a little bit of excitement is returning into my life I must get as close to the edge as possible without falling to my death this feeling is essential if YnL Enterprises is to survive and prosper .Oh and speaking of which I fired everyone after last weeks three day lack of focus. Of course there were reasons including a depressed friend bringing his negativity into my home ,very draining . And of course the realization that I had made the wrong choice with
BNY .Some good points were, a new job found and secured in one week , a regeneration of spirit, a six month milestone in self control, and a constant and relentless pursuit of knowledge . I managed to pickup the new issue of success magazine , it took me 3 days to look at it or listen to the Cd pack but when I finally did I learned about the motivation assasinator concept taught by Donna k. She said that emotional fallout from the day is one of the biggest demotivators of all ,such as a bad day at the job , arguments at home , and also negative individuals .If only I had popped the the cd in earlier I could have had 3 more more productive days I must watch out for and identify these causes of demotivation ,contain and defend against them in future.

dark days

First entry since Monday 4.25a Friday morning after getting some jagged hours of non sleep tonight I am finally able to make another journal entry. I still feel tired and need more sleep I have lost almost 3 days.Locked in a depressive mood and work atmosphere, there have been some high points but for the most part its been dark . I will rest more now tomorrow is my day off I have to regain my focus I did not expect to feel like this in these days I will try to wake up grateful and press on.

reality bites

after such an uplifting Sunday , Monday sucked well at least sales wise just two sales all day ,new changes on the behalf of management , overnight adjustments that are not going to put more cash in the till and that means also not in my pocket.An inflexibility in work schedule all mount up to the reality that being associated with B N Y was a wrong decision on my behalf . The potential for me to make money is actually there ,a wide variety of vendors sizes and style fits but the actuality is I have lost money since being there and yesterday was the big "I told you so ''. I must try to connect my business skills to another company with at least a higher hourly rate , then I will use my musician talents to generate more cash to add to my minimum cash flow so I can breath easier while I plan my fortune. The situation struck me so strongly that when I arrived home from work yesterday my energy was drained ,my intention to watch to watch the UK apprentice was taken by depressive sleep .This morning it took much longer for me to figure out the next move I must now once again prepare to go into an environment that I am not enthusiastic or satisfied with . This is the worst way to feel when going to work but I have no choice . For today I will think and strategize my way to more cash flow so that I can save and invest 10% of my money to enable my money to work for me.

the day of giving

labour day has arrived again, it feels like sunday. Yesterday was as close to being perfect as you can get.I woke up at 6.00a dressed in my running gearI prepared myself for the 10k . As I arrived at the start point I saw many people running to and meeting up at the V R a store in Henderson .There I saw the black shirted other partisipants in the 10k .The organizer of the run C was waiting there with her husband and her son . Two other girls appeared and I was informed that instead of 12 partisipants there would be just 6 . As I sized up the team I started to see that I was probably the most experienced runner , however looks can be deceiving , so I inquired about everyones pace and just as I thought I was the most accomplished of the bunch " lets just make sure that everyone makes the distance " I suggested, all seemed to be in agreement .One ather partisipant showed up at the last minuet as we all checked our equipment she did also however her I P battery was not charged and so did a last minuet scramble to calibrate ,our 7.00a start time had arrived she decided not to bother with the equipment and just run .She decided that she would run at her own pace and not with the team. Individual runners kept arriving at the V R they are in training for the Las Vegas marathon in December They start running at 5.30a every Sunday so most of them were finished as we began ,the late comer took of at such a pace that I realized she had put a lot of miles in I have seen many runners with this pace and I realized that she was in an elite class runner so as we started I began o settle in for a comfortable and exhilarating 6.2 miles. The course we took was along a wash we ran west toward green valley park way . Many other people were using the trail ,some were on bikes some just walking there dogs on Sunday morning. As we ran I chatted to C's husband D about music , he is a musician I offered to give him a lesson in slap and pop teqhnique on on bass guitar which is D's choice of instrument , he explained to me that he could read music and I took the opportunity to ask him if he could help me to understand and navigate music score we agreed to exchange talents . I have wanted to get to read music for many years I play bass by ear I can read chord charts but know because of this phase of my life is about learning and defining self and becoming stronger in all areas I will set another goal for myself , by the time I become a Millionaire I will also know how to read music. As we ran I kept my pace the same as everyone else in my team my goal was not to stop moving at any time even if the others could not keep running. Sure enough there was some stopping by the others so I looped back and forward between all the team members to make sure that they were all able to carry on to the finish and feel like Champions. The more that I looped the more miles I would accrue for my Charity of choice I continued this encouragement throughout the entire distance C's son decided that he would he would push for more at the end and on the last stretch he made a valiant effort to lose me but I matched his pace passed him then went back for him so we could cross the finish line together .I kept going, this time back for C and D ran them in then back for the other two girls until the finish line . The S B coffee team had accomplished our goal and everyone was and feeling like a champion .What a magnificent start to the day. As I drove back home on the freeway I set another goal ,I will run the Las Vegas Marathon this year. On arriving home I downloaded my miles to the NPlus site 8.6 miles completed I had more than made my goal I had surpassed it and helped my team accomplish their goal and donated my sweat and miles to a great cause . At 12.00p it was time to go to a meeting at the fellowship there were many new comers to the program and also many old timers, it was a wonderful meeting with so much caring and support ,the presence of good was so strong in this room allowing those that seek to free themselves from active addiction to receive the knowledge , power and encouragement that comes from the place of no judgement , just total honesty and understanding . It feels great to be able to admit your own mistakes and then allow others to benefit from your strength so they may find their own. My afternoon was spent in the jacuzzi eating b.b.q and relaxing .I received a phone call from a friend he explained he was feeling depressed and confused his girlfriend had left him and he knew that he was responsible ,as we talked I asked him not to worry about getting her back but more importantly that he should understand why why this was becoming a pattern in his life . I advised him to seek help identify his own shortcomings and character defects so that in the future he will be able to understand his part in this situation lastly I asked him to please love and forgive himself .Many times we beat ourselves up about our relationships or other areas of our lives and we dont think we deserve the best when we act out in certain behaviours it is often not what we think it is that makes us behave that way, when we seek help and ask we will find an answer to all things we just have to be willing . My evening was spent socializing as I rode to the M hotel in my friend G L's new Beemer I enjoyed the concept of a new car smell coupled with smooth and frightening power .G L has accomplished greatness in the world of body building He has held the Title of MR Italy and Mr universe when I get the chance I workout in the gym with him when you want to achieve success you hang out with the successful that way you see how their mind works and how they accomplish their goals.
Its now 3.00a Myself and Lisa and a few of our friends are at a table in the M hotel studio 54 club there are bottles of vodka and mixers and the club is jumping .Dj PVD is playing he is in the top ten best Dj's in the world he is not my favorite but I want to experience however and what ever is in the top ten of any field in order to be part of success you must accept , Aline, and connect yourself with it. The atmosphere is electric but I don't feel part of it I've been awake for 20 hours now and as I observe the behaviours of most of the club revelers I understand that they are under the influences of either some type of alcohol or drug most are in the grip of both .As Lisa and I leave the M hotel club I am so glad to be clean and sober , focused and dynamic .Today has been a day of giving and I am proud of myself, as a new week and month approaches there are many goals to be set and completed and I am confident that I can stay in a state of focus.

the longest day

2.20a Sunday morning, doing quick entry need to go to sleep soon. I'm running the the 10k human race in less than 5 hours ,had to calibrate my shoe sensor ,the miles I do will be recorded
and I can download them into my computer and to the N plus site my miles will be donated to the world wild life fund my charity of choice I'm really excited Its my first race in a long time .I 'm also exhausted the sales day was very slow for me at work did not leave the V hotel until12.00 midnight I have to to something to stop all these hours from slipping by, its not a proper balance of work time involved and cash compensation . Basically I'm working too many hours for too little money that has to change soon my money must work for me. For now I must put up with this ridiculous situation in order to create a temporary state of stability .Tomorrow the plan will be written, for this is my day off , I will run first then start planning .Going to sleep now , it's the end of the longest day .

not enough time

Friday morning 9.45a ready for work, don't start until 12.00 but need to go in to work to pick up check, cash check at local casino give money to E N he will then deposit money in his account transfer it to my account so that way the arrangement I made with T mobile can be completed , another negotiation. The job gets done but the time I waste doing just one bill is ridiculous .My most precious commodity is time luckily I still do have one account E t bank will save me in the last moment there is 41 cents in there but I have just realised it will be my new bank account. I will invest in stock , save, pay bills from this account the time saved will be immense because the challenge has been set time management will be essential to completing the one year goal. Direct deposit will save me about eight hours per week spent on traveling back and forth to all my bill locations . I must pay careful attention to this account. I will start a new good habit of carefully monitoring , maintaining and organizing my financials.

at the end of the day

I made it. woke up at 10.00a not feeling like facing the days uncertainties, made coffee took Rudy for a walk came home and called my son L he was 29 years old today I just missed him his mum told me that he and his girlfriend had gone out to a concert."How are you" she asked" not that good" I replied "" I can hear that" she said" feel like talking ?" so I started telling her about my financial mud bath and my dreams and aspirations and my regrets and resolutions, oh by the way L,s mum lives in London and we have been separated for 25 years. A visitor showed up at L's house my good friend Ren, long time since we were together we talked about life style, my change of direction in my life his achievement of purchasing 2 houses and life for us in general it was good to speak to both of these people from my past they have known me for many years .Ren was inspired by my new way of being and I felt recharged when he asked me" what do you have there" I descibed my cars, house and job situation I felt grateful again so after our conversation was over I went about my day. first I took care of the truck loan interest payment that bought me 30 more days, then I took out another loan for $450 to pay rent and arranged with a very nice lady from a collection agency who I have become very fond of, she was the first negotiation that I arranged for repayment of my credit cards and because she was so understanding about my situation I gained the courage to negotiate with all the other collection agency reps, thank you Mona R for being human about your job. The rent payed, the car still mine, and some money left to get to next pay day, mission accomplished. I will now return to posting my up till this point entries so please continue to read on. what a difference a day makes and how different I feel at the end of the day.

how will I make it?

This post is jumping ahead of the other chapters. my computer crashed and I lost all previous material for posts good job that I printed them out on paper I will continue to add them in the order that I recorded them because the chronological history is important in monitoring how I grow in this journey. Its 4.45a Tuesday morning I'm not feeling motivated, the burden of my debts weigh heavy on me.The new job is not working out well financially the holidays are approaching and I am in clear danger of losing my home to eviction and my truck to a loan company. I was just here 30 days ago I did write about it but that entry is now lost due to computer crash I did make it through the last crisis but another returns to test me in these days. what did I learn from the last time ? well first of all I made it through by taking action and preparing all the paperwork for the loans I took out and remained in a state of gratefulness for the fact that I got through, but as this next challenge approaches I feel once again in such a difficult place all I have in my life is liability and no assets I have a job but it does not pay enough to cover all of my living expenses and bills I spent today taking care of a red letter bill due for cut off .managed to keep the gas on, need hot water you know .I friend met me at 7.00a yesterday and took out a $400 loan for me so that I could cover my rent but now I need another $300 to take care of the interest for the truck loan and to get to next paycheck two weeks from now. I'm so exhausted from doing this process every 30 days I pray for some miracle to change my financial life but alas I can only ask for strength and guidance from my higher power. Tomorrow will be stressful I hope to take out 2 more loans in order to make it until next paycheck I will not stop searching for new investment opportunities I just need a good amount of investment capital so that I can start doing business for now its one day at a time. If I can get through today I can probably get through tomorrow, as the dawn approaches I am anxious to see how will I make it?.

fannie and freddy

8.00A Thursday morning ,yesterday was very productive, just as I strategized my early arrival at B N Y wiped clear the memory of previous days seminars missed I showed up in a trendy blend of A and E H with cool silver accessories and brown project bag collar turned up on my sport coat finished of with pink pocket square and a pair of black aviator style sun glasses ,the vendor meeting was short and as the rep spoke about the brand I was glad that I showed up the company that she represents is called ac, a denim company we have four types of style of this jean at BNY it is a Swedish company with Young owner and ceo ac was started in Stockholm in the founders garage he and three friends started a pr and marketing company the owner decided that he would have a hundred pairs of jeans made to send to his friends of the company however when he received the jeans he was not impressed by them so he stashed them under his desk there they stayed until a co worker found them asked what they were a sent them out to people they received a call from a store in Paris offering to buy the lot, the rest is history the ac chain has expanded beyond belief in ten years this story alone was worthwhile me being there, seminar finished I went to the R L store located In the P mall and took some pictures of the interior it is indeed beautifully done classic style walls and cabinets black and white in accent with cherry wood cabinetry tastefully accessorised with pictures and silver trophies and vases next move for me was straight to R G office at the venetian corporate offices I have been speaking to R Secretary a lot being the president of the V keeps R G extremely busy however I am prepared My presentation package for L S shoe service is with me upon entering the reception of the Corporate office I see the receptionist," are you Kimberly? " I say yes she replies I'm Y, up till now we have just spoken on the phone
I hand her my presentation service brochure "Is R G available?" I ask "no that would be nice hey" she says ,
At that very moment RG comes out of his office on his way to another appointment he is a young and dynamic man athletic build and very approachable for someone in is position today he is wearing a grey exquisitely tailored k suit he has always complemented me on my appearance and today I return the compliment to him "I just left you some thing R G how are you" " what is it how are? you I'm busy" he says "I know" I reply" you never have to explain that to me R G "I say" what do you want to do Y? "" bring my shoe service into your hotel" I reply "but I have 7 thousand rooms I just don't see how you can do that, I can't advertise a service and not deliver" "how about I start with your shoes first and we figure that out after"I reply "oh ill give you my shoes to do I have tons of shoes" by this time were in the main hall of V mall I and I say good bye R G continued on "see you he says. great I got my meeting, got a commitment from him and was given a task by him at the same time and all this in about three minuets ill take it. I call L the owner of the shoe repair store I will be using explain to him what just happened" we will just work harder" he says I laugh "yes but just suppose every guest in the hotel decideds at one time to get their shoes done, how will we do it? thanks R G for making me think as big as you do every day R G is in charge of one of the biggest hotels in the world that’s how you have to think when your at that level oh and by the way he is a millinonaire.On arriving home I put in a call to my good friend Major D fuller, major xtreme as I call him he has known about the shoe service idea since I started it, he is very skilled in operations he is a team leader and has had to hire, fire and lead up to one hundred sales profeesionals at a time. He is also a very shrewd investor ,he has a B. A in business and knows how not to lose a 5 million dollar tank to boot ,when your incharge of that car you better not bring it back wrecked, you won't only lose your job you may have lost the lives of you soldiers in your command. He is very interested in investing in L S S and said he is willing to fund the purchase of 100 pairs of shoes we we just roll them up to the door in the back of a van and and say" see you tomorrow get them done" this way ill know exactly how many can be actually done by L thanks for your support Major D .Fannie mae and Freddie mac are the two biggest morgage lenders in America and they are in trouble, as I woke this morning as every morning I turned on cnbc. Ive been listening to and watching the people that know about money wall street in real time go through ups and down in the markets, if you want to learn about money you simply have to learn about it as much as you can, absorb as much as possible, and because money is part of being a millionaire, I am no exception to this principle .I don’t know enough about the stock market yet to predict an outcome for fannie and freedy but I do know that those to institutions are in trouble. just imagine how their ceo' s chairmans, and employees will have to be on their game, Now I will watch the story as It unfolds and learn more.Yesterday I also had more progress with negotiation, B of A and two more credit card companies are working with me. im feeling confident, humble, and excited for my future. also made one call to a potential investor for the appolo las vegas will try to meet him next week Received email from Dj A and friend of m sent me 2 of his tracks to listern to.Pilot Productions is alive and kicking. Going for a run now, 20 laps today Iwill be running in 10k on sunday so this will be last run till then.

the first board meeting

YNL ENTERPRISES is a multi faceted company with many subdivisions. in some areas the subdivisions are established others have become stagnant and some are in the idea stage. All are placed under the the umbrella of the parent company YNL the company has been operating at a loss for quite sometime and has been inundated with debt , YNL must recover and control its debt stabilise and then prospect, find and secure investment to turn a profit to the tune of one million dollars with in the time frame of one year from this date . The meeting will now commence .Here is the list of subdivisions in YNL that can generate cash flow .
B N Y sales associate, my business with in a business.
BUSA internet retail sales store for bass guitars and bass accessories.
PILOT PRODUCTIONS artist management an production company.
L S SHOE SERVICE shoe pick up and delivery service .
G CHALLENGE booking agent and site coordinator.
A L IN LAS VEGAS Talent manager.
PET INDUSRTY INVENTION Invention for pet industry.
LAND INVESTMENT real estate investment company .
RETAIL DESIGNER CLOTHING retail supplier of designer goods from china.
INDEPENDENT MANUFACTURER S PROMOTION AGENT freelance network promo
Three stages that need to be accomplished. dig company out from hole,stay level ,climb to top of mountain .
Stage 1. stabilise and regain control of debt .
Stage 2. Establish prospect investment
Stage 3. turn profit into further investment until million dollar mark is secured .
Goal will be split into 12 monthly periods
Each month broken down into 4 weeks
Each week broken down into daily goals and tasks which must be completed beginning of week goal will be set and reviewed at the end of each week to check on and monitor progress maximum of three firings per week is excepted any more than that number is not .
Board meeting is now adjourned there is work to be done .