Sunday 11.30pm March 6th,
Now begins the time of tough decisions I am at the end of my rope I have grown so tired of the stress of finding the money to keep my bills paid that I don't want to get up to face the day any more, it has been 7 months since I started selling Jewelry as a supplement to my Real estate business ,I have only commissioned once in all that time the end of this month I will receive that check .I don't know how I have been able to face the people I have asked to help me with money so that I can stay in my current home.The shame and humiliation is unbearable.
Thank God I have friends that have compassion for me and I have been able to negotiate more time for my bills but this is so stressful and hard to do continuously that am becoming worn down and inwardly depressed .I cry in frustration and anger, I don't laugh enough I drift in and out of anxiety and fear of losing the home I have maintained for Myself and Lisa and Rudy .It has been years now that I have not been able to pay my way properly I have spent almost 2 years with my business partner at TCG and we have faced the Las Vegas real estate market head on all this time, building and positioning ourselves to profit from the amazing opportunities available in a down housing market .But alas we have not yet been able to monetize our business so that it Will take care of all our bill commitments.
It seems so ironic hat a man such as myself having a full time job and a business should every 30 days face such terrible financial stress.
I have decided to give my company till the end of this year to become profitable or I must leave and go back to England and try to regroup .Without capital it is next to impossible to run and operate a business.Tomorrow my electricity will be cut off and then I face the ultimatum of eviction on the 15th I will need once again to put together over $900 before that date and I don't know how I will.
These next few days will be full of tough Decisions.
