The Toughest Week Yet!!!

Sunday 12.00pm. The last three days have been dark for me,After the disappointment of not getting hired by a L store I feel into a deep depression a helpless place in my own mind I could not bring myself out into the light I sat and slept and kept myself in doors away from everything and everyone.What a terrible place to be ,no motivation ,no energy, no hope, no positive thoughts, no power to shift my mental state .Who ever says money is not important let me speak to their statement.To have money and no spiritual contact or center is bad because you will not be able to truly enjoy and maintain your inner contentment but in this state of non connection to spiritual priciples and attachment to material things you will be able to live in this world of capitalism we are used to to be spiritually connected and be broke can only work if you are in a place where you do not need money to receive all the naturally provided things needed for survival example a tropical island a mountain top a remote area away from modern society where living of the land organically growing food and planting in a natural environment cultivating all that has been provided by God for the enjoyment of man ,However Money has been set as the other great provider of all things created by mankind for mankind and if you don't have enough you are surely the unlucky one in a million no choice is left just humiliation .I now vow that if I make it trough these toughest of times I will never look at money lightly in the future I will never think that I have enough Money again I cannot and will not be in this position in life again .I must find a Job this week or I will be on the street next month on the 15Th day.I must get hired this week .Of course that means I must find the power and energy to pull my mind together or I am doomed to sit again for days with no motivation full of regrets and bitterness.I even know what to do but cannot pull myself together enough.I will try my best today to relax and be thankful and analytical about this next week I must plot my week get back into my life again, Lisa is more positive in these days than I .I must be strong for all of us or everything will fall apart .Monday must be a turning point for my mind set I have run a Marathon I have achieved awards in my career and touched the very top ,I hate being at the bottom this cruel lesson of circumstance must have a true reward for all this discomfort and bad feeling I will pray for the answer and I will move my mind to the Victor and not the victim as I come to the end of the toughest week yet.