Still Here ( By the skin of my teeth)

Monday June 21st 8.pm I am still here just barely ,saved by my aging Mother who closed an account in trhe eleventh hour before being kicked out of my home,thank God.Just one day to enjoy the fact and then back into terrible worry about everything Today is the first day of Summer and should be a joyous Birthday for my beloved Lisa but alas it is a dark day indeed. I woke up with a troubled mind and two dollars to my name and as I have done before did what was nessasary to fdulfill my obligations of being alive in my world I showered and shaved wentr to the meditation Chapel and asked for guidance and said a prayer for others not as fortunate as me .Then went to the church outreach to pick up some groceries donated by kind people who have charity in their haearts for others less fortunate than them namely me.I brought home the groceries chaged the money at a change machine $ 11.13 was the plentiful amount I went to the dollar store poicked out a pair of pink running shorts $3.00 a pair of flip flops with cute cherries on and a card $5.95 was the toptal a far far cry from D&G ,Prada or Gucci I wrapped gifts went upstaairs with Rudy placing the straps of the bag on his pawss as I held him up.Lisa awoke and was happy to see the gifts we hugged and kissed while rudy licked I had done the best with a little amunt I knew It was not enough I knew It would not last long enough to take away the deep sadness and depresion Lisa was feeling I sent a resume and went into the office>My partner was not feeling to energetic due to his own financial problems in his life .Soon I realised that we had done all we could do for this month .The cash client we had we lost due to some confusion and he will not return phone calls made to him after reviewing and analyzing we think when he discovered we were investors and not agents he decided to not work with us.We once again go back to the drawing board.On arriving home things had taken a bad turn for the worst Lisa was balling her eyes out to her friend about how much of a loser she was and that she needed to end this life she was living I tryed to stay calm and not let it escalate with any comments from Me I know when she gets that way there is nothing I can do till she calms down soon she will act out on what she says and that is my biggest fear and nightmare .Meanwhile I have a gas bill to pay on Wednesday and cell phone on Friday.My back pain has gone from lower back to right lower the stress is moving into a new part of my body.My only hope is to be hired soon and continue to give out my resumes while the senate sits in agonisingly slow debate I suffer terribly along with all other unemployed people in the USA I'm still here by the skin of my teeth.