Monday May 17th , 9am. After a long flight I returned to Las Vegas delivered by a Virgin still high as a kite from flying over 5,000 miles at 37,000 feet.I made a triumphant spiritual journey back to the future my moms 80th birthday bash where I caught up with past and saw the present and future 4 generations of my family and freinds all brought together by my moms Birthday.As we Danced the night away full from my moms catered food.I realised the one thing I have been looking for and cannot find in America Structured permanence and continuation a 30 year plan come to fruition planning that works and home.The strange feel of learning a place where everything seems different ,from the size of the roads to the style of housing the method of moving around the city to the ethnic mix and night club scene the familiar land marks of my childhood to the visit in north of England where I hugged once again my teenage friend as I watched him perform in his band.On arriving back It became clear to me I don't have to live like a rat in America I can go home to England and I will.But first things first reality bites still behind with bills debt collectors calling constantly what has changed since my first entry blog ....Nothing I am still broke still struggling to keep all the utilities paid but still there is change new hope I goal and a glimmer of the good life in my future after one week of jet lagged sleep craziness where time and depression and laziness and reminiscing and getting used to wide roads and American TV I finally pulled my self out of this no commitment twilight zone with my first run short but sweet and aikido practice I have found the answer to my future I must think my life into place I will brainstorm and plan all my next months a cerebral structuring an art of war approach to the coming months to assure my financial future until I am back Home again in England I will not rest for it is my destiny set forth Back to the Future remade by yours truly
in 3d.
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